Chapter One: You’re on Your Own

Being a nobody is a lonesome experience because if you seem not important, everything you’d do would be undervalued by the very people around you. As we struggle to make our own voices visible, as we try to become relevant, and as we keep on trying our very best to be acknowledged, we expect the world to accept us and make us also a part of them; and if we fail to do it with such anticipation, we’d resort into accepting the fate of loneliness. Though we are never truly alone, all we ever felt was that we’re on our own.

 

Let’s face it, it is hard to be on our own, especially whenever the time came in that we need to face problems and we need someone to talk to. We can’t count on their shoulders to lean upon, because we are something that they don’t see as their equal beings, we simply just exist. The very feeling of having to do things alone and not depending on others was hard enough but we’re accustomed to doing it because in the end we only have ourselves and the only one who’s gonna be there is ourselves. Sometimes we think that having ourselves is not enough and we crave the validation of others. There were times when we became envious because somebody has it all. We are blinded by the fact that from the very start of our survival all we really have is ourselves to rely upon.

 

We are too shy, or if not, too ashamed to ask for their guidance, because all we have is this perception that we’ll be dismissed as soon as we try to open up, and that’s why we kept trying to just keep it to ourselves. Nobody wants a broken, unstable, and unknown person to open up; and that’s what we at least think when we almost open up.